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01 June 2008 @ 03:02 pm
PINDAH RUMAH/MOVE HOUSE  
HOLA PEEPZ! LIZZIE JUST TOOK A SUPER ROCKET AND FLEW TO ANOTHER PLANET! SO HERE'S HER NEW WORLD =D :
LIZZIE'S SILENT WORLD
DO VISIT HER IF YOU HAPPEN TO DROP BY ^^ CHEERZ ALL, BYE!


*PS: THIS SITE WILL NOT BE DELETED BECAUSE THERE'S TOO MUCH MEMORIES.. ;)
 
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24 May 2008 @ 12:44 am
Complaints, complaints~  
complaints are distributed randomly from.... UGH! STATS! anyways, i'm down with 4 papers, 6 more to go.. feel so tired right now.. starting this... short insignificant sad break.... like no break at all.. no difference... apa nie??! *faints* ANYWAYS~! *revives back* i'm happily spending the rest of my life here... whats exam compared to being at home la? xD... okay i'm so dead..... well well, past is past.. now have to work hard for FOUR FUCKING papers in a week... chemistry, you are killing me. please stop. =.=' i want to just faint~!!!! my mood right now is just to pause the time(because time is rushing home to pang sai... rushing so fast...) and fall on my back on the beach then just listen to the waves... ahh~~! ^^ heaven~ ^^

crap too much~ need food...... need apple.. ^^ love apple! my study food: apple.. water.. tuna in olive oil can.. and apple... @.@ oh yeah~ i've got many new friends.. ppl i adore, ppl i care~ haha the list of ppl i care just expanded itself =O come to think of it, its really funny ^^ story begins like this :

two years ago, lizzie braced herself to talk to a senior in her secondary school after the day the japan exchange students came~ got to know that her senior is a big fan of x japan =D so this one fateful day, she was invited to JRock Kingdom (JRK) Vol. 3 which was located at the other end of the world i.e. Halo Cafe South City Plaza~ reason she was asked to go is because the senior wanted a companion and she knew this junior is a kind transport-provider xD anyways they were there for the night, and lizzie was tremendously thrilled~ looking at those band performances doing covers for the music genre she likes, she silently hoped that she had the courage to just go up and tell them how great they did. but she didnt. and she left like a music sheet, incomplete.
waited and waited~ the next year came... and she waited~ and the next year came.. the year of change.. the community took the effort to build a "house" online to gather all ppl of same interest~ she timidly joined *the* house that started with a weeeee small number or performers~ then more. and more. and more. until there's more than 200 in the house now! =D anyways, she started to know many ppl~

and now she just want to stay at *the* house for a very long while ^^ *penghuni tetap*~! yes, there may be ups and downs. the music sheet is still incomplete. but with more music notes around, she is sure that one day the music sheet will be completed and the melody that accompanies is able to cheer one up =)

such an advance... from jrk1 and 2 in small gigs, turned a jrk4 expanded so big @.@ the determination... my inspiration ^^ so lets get the oil pumped and the gear shifted, we shall all work hard for jrk5 ;) thank you dear organisers and performers!

i still want to become a vet.. so stupid~ alrd know its impossible, still daydreaming... i strolled the pasar malam with my parents tonight~ found that there were so many ppl asking donations for the china and myanmar disasters (from same org lah..)
hey ppl, there are another 2 pandas in szechuan still missing... anyone??.... hello?....
hey mister, you dont want to give a damn at those extinct animals, and you expect me to give a damn about you??? to compare a human to an animal is very much a stupid thing to do. humans are animals, just failed creations of God~ nah this is too extreme~ anyways, find the pandas please? and seriously, its all due to stupidity of some ppl who didnt even care when mass animals moved to another place~ how now? wasting your time and energy crying and saving ppl's life? how funny humans can be. omG!!! i hate humans so much now!! ahh... probably due to the fucked up man in pasar malam just now.
"come come i belanja you one or two cups of FRESH SNAKE BLOOD. who here hasnt tried before? dont be shy lah. just raise up your hand~! i belanja you one cup, no charge! good, you tell me want more or not! bad, you say out loud!"
dad wanted to buy some snake-made ointment for skin prob, but i dragged him away blackmailing him that the car key was with me (HAA!!! being driver isnt always bad! xD) hey there's always other ointment made of chemicals or plants right.. then back home, he kept saying i'm bad daughter la made him itchy itchy no ointment sapu and all~ of course, in a joking way~ but then i asked him,
"do you know if he takes the snakes' dead skin they changed out from to make the ointment, or he skins them alive, let them bleed whatsoever, and still make it ointment?
he couldnt answer. i won. then the final, "next time you wanna try snake blood or eat snake meat or use snakey stuff, think of ME!" LOL~!! ah-hem~ due to lizzie being born in the year of snake, snakes are her... soul~! xD

blah better stop now before i curse the whole humankind xD *hugs poochi* hvnt make poochi "agua"~!!! xD aiya my legs gettin uglier due to his scratches and bites la =.='' anjing nakal haih~ but the vet clinic at setapak =|... mummy doesnt wanna drive, but doesnt wanna take care of the scared si gemuk busuk in car also... xD i think she wants to wait til my sis gets back 1st lo hahah!!

mummy bought new phone!!!! and its samsung!!!!! and its a freakin SLIDE PHONE~!!!! @.@ well, its gonna be mine in no time xD i'm serious.... HAHA~! *still hugging mummy* she wants to use for a while first~ then only gimme and use my phone instead ngek ngek ngek xD

i'm indirectly helping SAB with their IU Day... pity them... esp adeline... who still needs to suffer due to their... i duno what to say~ the club's pathetic, members are pathetic. the spirit of the interact club is forever gone... sigh~

i think should sleep early la... must start chem earlier... haih i'm still very much addicted to Morpho ... such a beautiful sad song T.T makes me emo only haih~! but michelle's voice is just so........ its still repeating for the ...... i-lazy-wanna-count-liao number of times~ T.T need emo songs to put myself in exam mode! haha~


When You Love Them...
- you change the radio station to their preference before they get into car
- you save up and buy them things they like but never obviously showed out
- you do stupid things to cheer them up, even in public
- you are willing to be embarrassed by them if that makes them feel better after ranting at you
- you inspire them, giving them advices without making them feel intimidated
- you think of them first whenever you do something
- you put them in HIGH priority
- you go over the boundary if needed just to make them feel better
- you stay up all night to make sure that they gets better from sickness
- you live for them, work hard to realise their dreams and to let them live better
- you cry when you just had big arguments with them, because it hurts to be hurt by them, and you feel the same pain they feel at the same time

some things i am doing, others, i'm still trying. but all have been done by them. its my turn now~ are you thinking of your significant other half?.... i'm thinking of my parents =)
i love you, daddy mommy kache and poochi~ ^^

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18 May 2008 @ 10:33 pm
Something. Whatever thing~ Pt. II  
From the first day I saw you
You carved your way into me
Flinging your soul around them
Filled with hopes, you assured us

In the beginning, you took it easy
You really thought it was that simple
But what awaited you was the stones, harsh
So harsh that they cause you to struggle

You slowly came to realise the truths
Reality is harsh, it has always been the fact
As you move on, more facts turn fake
You start seeing everything being false

You have always been the strong one
Even when adults cry, you are calm too
But you must have been wondering more than thrice
What are you so strong for

You find yourself bleeding everywhere
You get afraid, there is no exit anywhere
Perhaps you dropped your memory somewhere?
But now, you find nowhere to run, nowhere

Where did things go wrong, you think
All the blessings you owned, they disappear
You find yourself in the corner, unable to run
The voice within keeps telling you to just die

You still care for others so intensely
But over and over, they hurt you so deeply
Yet you struggle to hold on immensely
Until you sometimes break down and cry so greatly

You never stop waiting for miracles
Seeing everything half full must be a gift
But you are being let down, like dreams
The worst never happens, because it keeps getting worse like you're cursed

You must have been crying lately
May be all the tears you held back then
It has finally smashed you now
Because you stop thinking of the future

You still like sitting on sands watching the day withers
Watching the sun staring back at you as it makes its way to sleep
You constantly want things to freeze, just like winter
Only to be shaken back to reality by the strong wind when it sweeps
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18 May 2008 @ 10:25 pm
Where Do We Go  
After times of being smart
It is time for us to part
We clean our memories, leaving behind our times
Times of joy, times of tears
We start a new journey with fear
Where do we go from here?

Sounds of world clashing is so clear
We walk our ways, shedding no tears
We slowly forget who we are, or who we once are
Forgetting promises we once made
Reality tramples us as though we are dead
Where can we go from here?

One by one eventually stops smiling
Though they may be, one or two fighting
For all the right reasons they believe, but to no avail
They fight tears, they are hurt everywhere
But there is no one for them to share
Where should they go from here?

We ignore them, we forget what is pain
As long as we get the desired, we think we gain
We do, we do gain false happiness, false kindness
Everything is false, money is the only root
We strive so much, we forget to stay put
Where must we go from here?

The sun slowly hides behind the clouds
Being a shelter, the sky is not proud
We no longer seek for hope or eternal salvation
Our blood-shed hands are weak
We shut every door, the future is bleak
Where then, do we go from here?
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18 May 2008 @ 10:10 pm
Something. Whatever thing~  
The rain pours like nobody's business
The leaves try to hold still on trees
As the sad melody plays in my ears,
the wind blows the baby dandelion far away
While the clouds move their way to elsewhere,
people rushing below with umbrellas in hand
The sounds of 'tap-taps' and 'click-clocks'
Joins the wind, filling the air
The adults trying to keep themselves dry
The students cling on their books, protecting them
Every drop of the rain shakes them

The rain
It washes away the pain
It hides the tears
It bares one's true self
It brings back sad memories
It hides the tears again

Everyone is unhappy of the rain
They need to be dry, to continue pretend
To pretend that they are not as weak
as the rain that falls freely
They are not free
Like a caged bird, they try to be happy
But the rain brings them sad reality
Like tears, it comes drop by drop
Cold as it may be, warm when touches us
The heat of burning passion
leaves together with the raindrop that falls
Only the passionate lovers hold each other tightly
as though the wind could blow one off
Physically, no
But emotion-wise
The body remains, the heart is gone

Ah
Finally it's slowing down
They continue the walk
Sighs of relief linger
But deep inside, they are still wet
of crying heart


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15 May 2008 @ 05:50 pm
ppps  
ps punya ps punya ps..

i'm SO lying to myself when i said i'm gonna be hiatus til after exam... xD oh my f god what the hell am i doin here xD
 
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14 May 2008 @ 09:34 pm
Of JRock Kingdom Vol.4, and stuffs~  
disclaimer : because i've waited this for like.. 1yr++ since the last jrock kingdom, comments may be biased~ feel free to go "wtf doesnt this girl know any music?!" and all~ doesnt really matter to me =D also, all the pics are kinda blur~ and i've included a link to my photobucket, so please dont steal yeah~ doesnt worth it anyway since they're so badly taken ^^ but just.. dont.. i really, really, drained my 2 days arm energy to get the pics and vids.... T.T


Date   : May 10, 2008
Time  : 4pm - 10.30pm (stated time.. but i reached there near 6pm and went back after 11pm)
Venue: Ruums KL
All the pics and vids : Lizzy's Photobucket
More info at : JRock Kingdom Forum

Yeaps~ My long awaited event has finally arrived.. Indeed, it's over and I'm glad I went for it~ Still doesnt make any sense to me why do these gigs MUST fall on few days before my exams~ Cut the crap, lets move~

1. Haze feat. Miniature Garden [Vo.Haze, Gu.Alex, Gu.David, Ba.Darwin, Dr.Edmund]
i got there just in time to catch some ppl breakdance (pr whatsoever dance) on the stage~ exactly like what jay said, just some bunch of youngsters chafing the floor with their feet, accompanied by loud booming music.... i suppose its techno? anyways, the band performances started with Haze feat. Miniature Garden. They(or Haze) did Pink Spider by hide during JRK3 and Laundry Bar gig really well, thus catching my attention. To my surprise, putting them as the first band playing was really a good choice, because when Haze started singing, all heads turned to stage (as I saw it, you might not see it) and started paying attention. Couldnt agree more that Haze really knows how to perform and sing *thumb's up*

Haze feat Miniature Garden

ahh~ not to mention this is the only band who did cover for glay that night, yuuwaku~ and they obviously did pretty well on it!! ;)


2. Drazo'ken [Vo.Reiki, Gu.Ving, Gu.Kim, Ba.Meo, Dr.Ivan]
then came Drako'zen who has already caught my attention in forum. but it wasnt wise to put them 2nd in line, since they made the whole crowd gone crazy @.@ heeeheee i bet even without the sexy emcee's help on forcing the peeps to go forth stage, they (the drakos) would be able to lure the crowd ^^ heard my friend said that they really looked like Malaysian Gilgamesh *woot* too bad i dont know gilgamesh ^^ but from how they cover, i guess i should give it a try ^^ anyways, the vocalist spoke in japanese~!! well, there's the good side and the bad side~ we're in a jrock gig,its more appropriate to speak in japanese.. but we're in a *malaysian* jrock gig, i believe most of the peeps in the crowd didnt know what were they cheering for except for the time when reiki asked them if the band members are cute and cool and all~ *kakkoi ka? ~ haaai~!!*

Drako'zen

they did Filth in the Beauty by gazette~!! such awesomeness ^^ but the headbanging... wasnt really something i adore watching ^^' coz they really just.. head bang... *head*. bang..


3. Bouncing Asian [Vo.Stif, Gu.Kent, Gu.Jay, Ba.Eddy, Dr.Darryl]
this is.. definitely.. NOT japanese ROCK. but i really am amazed by how the vocalist grabs everyone's attention and made them start jumping and shouting with him. didnt make a good first impression when they started the intro music. what to do? the previous band double shot the crowd with adrenalin shot XD luckily when stif "bounced" out and started singing, the whole ambience actually changed and ppl started cheering and all =D i wasnt excluded okay~ i enjoyed their performance hell lot coz i didnt expect such a big response from the crowd ^^ but there were some times when the guitars went off tune for awhile, 1st time from kent's, 2nd time from jay~ yes i actually observe apart from enjoying~ but stif, i really believe he's the champ now, as what's said in forum.. he can freakin influence ppl, man~! the crowd just focused on him rather than the music (or i'm just tone-deaf.... heck, i only observe! xD) 3 cheers for this band that i just knew about ^^

Bouncing Asian

matches the name: they bounce, they made the crowd bounce with them ^^


4. J'Misquall [Vo.Michelle, Gu.Hann, Ba.Hung Siew(replacement for Moon), Key.Ting Ting, Dr.Ho Seng]
they're just.. *speechless* amazing. i can find so many other better words to replace "amazing" but really... especially michelle's voice. she just got better and better after jrk3.. for awhile when she started singing, i was stunned and was speechless. *lizzie got mesmerised!* her voice is so sweet! forget about malaysian idols or whatsoever idols msia has. her voice is special. it mesmerises, it silents ppl up, it just makes you listen. (i'm not. NOT. exaggerating. again, personal opinion) . i wasnt very much keen on taking the video after she started singing.. very tempted to just, *listen*. not hear, but listen. with all my heart and soul, i listened =)

J'Misquall

their new song Morpho is a MUST-LISTEN~! (thanx to hung siew sending me the song, i'm now addicted to it =.='' )


5. Strawberry Jam [Vo.Jeremy, Gu.Ian, Gu.Keong, Ba.Steven, Dr.CY]
need i say more? they are the ones that give me the biggest push to every gig that has them performing =D yup yup this event definitely aint excluded ^^ and to my bewilderment, they did all dir en grey cover for the night. ONLY. YES!!!! all night performing, its all dir en grey, and no more red..em and obscure (thought its kinda sad.. cos i love them performing obscure). most songs they did are in Withering to Death.. good choice, WtD is one of their best albums ^^ this is the one band that i've seen in my entire life that can do dir en grey cover *without* losing the essentials, *with* their own style in it. *two thumbs up* perhaps i'm biased because i love dir en grey~ and they really rocked the night. even the performers (especially reiki) headbanged with them, yelled and screamed with them, and worshipped them! i'd say this is the climax of the night. even those club-goers left their tables and joined the crowd =D a'ight~ 'nuf said!

Strawberry Jam

i really dont know why is it when its this band's turn, the ambience of the stage turned smoky -.-'' anyway jeremy actually imitated kyo's style in er.. .. ... spilling blood from mouth?.. and dear reika(cosplayer) terkena XD!!


6. Mage [Vo.Moon, Gu.Ichiro, Gu.David, Ba.Chit Wei, Dr.Terry]
i miss gene, though~ but hmm.. to be honest, the crowd actually died down during this band's performance in the end~ unlike sjam who received unlimited encores (til trouble came out..), many ppl left the stage, leaving some who actually know how good Mage is. anyway, i sang with them when they performed All the Lonely Nights~! the music alone is very upbeat, and if you've read the lyrics, you'd love the song more. speaking of which, i really admire Moon as writer/composer now m=.=m *worships Moon* but i'm not really used to seeing them in... costumes ^^" except for ichiro.. moon and david and chit wei looked so different.. but really, what can costume say when the music takes control? =)

Mage

i spent my last few breaths and voice to actually stomp the stage and yelled for more =O and what did i get in return? ^^

The Best Picture of the Night [wouldve been best of the best if i were to take from centre and focus on everyone =( ]

dont ask me why~ i just love this pic very much thats all =D

1 thing i regret that night, is that i didnt ask hisashi to gather all performers so that i can take some good pics =D and alot of my friends left early too =( but anyway, it was hell of a night~ definitely worth going, although my exam's on :p

ps: i skipped those cosplaying thing anyway~ cos it wasnt my main purpose of going~ oh oh and daddy was worried when he saw the styles when he earlier sent the ice packs there xD *me says: daddy~! this is the new youngster world! we are old already, game isnt ours to play liao lor~! XD* hey i'm not old! just.... just... NOT! Xp

pps~!!: catch Mage's All the Lonely Nights in Mage and J'Misquall's Morpho in J'Misquall ~!!!!!!!!!
 
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27 April 2008 @ 12:49 am
Countdown  
to jrock kingdom vol.4 = 2 weeks
to finals = 2 weeks + 1 day
to end of a levels = 7 weeks + 4 days
to a levels annual ball = 9 weeks
to langkawi = 10 weeks
to bangkok = 10 weeks and 2 days

note that mt last countdown is to bangkok, not australia. i dont fucking know if i should feel happy bout this. mum seems in glee, though.

exam's coming and i'm currently in mocks week~ freaking tiring~ feels like i have not been studying enough~ sigh.

went to dorothy perkins for their mid sales season. bought a black coat and another khaki~ total? 300 =| guess i made the right decision by letting mum pick bangkok after all. it was the first time i actually skipped stats class to go shopping. wow.

very obsessed in english songs nowadays. hmmm probably coz dir en grey hasnt come out with any new singles after dozing green. i'm tired of dozing green already. pls give me something else?

i fucking hate ppl to ffk others without a message. do you know how annoying it is? if you want to ffk, just say so and notice ppl earlier so that they can make other preparations. by avoiding ppl you are being worse than a fucking damn chicken. fucker. if you happen to be someone i know and you're doing this to feel "less guilty", please. LEAVE MY WORLD, dude. its already contaminated with ugly humankind, i dont need ppl like you to make things worse. fuck off.

times when i really find a true friend around me is so much lesser than times when i realise some ppl arent worth my time. but today i find 3 really good friends who would sacrifice something for me. thank you babes ;) i went home with kervin on previous thursday. his perception of a true friend is quite the same as mine too. i guess our expectations are too high? ppl like us, are very vulnerable to bad ppl. they tend to make use of us then throw us away. see? being too nice. should start being eeeeeevil~.... but then, if i start being evil, what more can distinguish me from those trash?

i think i'm being emo now~ probably because my wmp's playlist is the Emo one haha~ also, facing a big stack of chemistry stresses me out. fuck i havent revise for unit2. i havent even revise for ANY retake papers. fuck fuck fuck.

oh to end this:
things i now know about *him*
-he's got msn and he settled a dispute with a student of his through msn (got to know this when he related the incident to another person in the lift xD "i told him, study is more important than you disliking me right now"
-he's got something to do with a royal family (got to know this from some ppl who are acquainted to him when they talked in lift. guess he must have been 'showing off' xD)
-which means he's probably kinda rich xD

okay XD i think i've cheered up a lil xD muaxx to myself~ xoxox

[shall be on hiatus until after exam]
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14 April 2008 @ 10:07 pm
Some days~  
i want to rant i dont care. i'm feeling really really pathetic now~

there's this one really stupid bad luck day.... which was on i forgot when... shud be thur or fri.... well, i got on to the wrong van which got me to kompleks mahkamah jalan duta, luckily the van driver was kind enough to send me to jln dungun T.T then there's string of unfortunate events which i'd rather not talk about~

lets talk about today. today is a pathetic day, really. well, except for that few minutes of waiting for the lift with him, and spent a short while with him in the lift before i got out at G floor~ argh back to topic. anyway i was really really really REALLY enthu because mum agreed to sponsor me to australia, provided that i pay her back when i come back and work~ i was really desperate to go, i got all hyped out when kervin said that the flight back from langkawi is at 12.50pm, which means i could get on to the 9.25pm flight to australia~ cos i really didnt want to take the friday's flight which is 100 bucks more expensive~

with all the hassles, mum showed me a msg from airasia having a promo to aus at 169~ so i'm waiting for 12mn to arrive haha. but really, why have i forgotten mum? a famous typical liar she is, just few minutes before this post, while she was holding her airasia card, she said, "dont go lah. so expensive. i where got money?" why. why are you making promises when you know you cant fulfil it. its really annoying me. really, really annoying me. and its not the first time. why do i keep trusting her and let her fail me everytime? hell this is getting on my nerves.

i now possess her airasia card which i dont fucking now why. she doesnt want me to go anyway. should i give up? i just got a call from jeff, giving him hopes and all, giving myself hopes and all, hoping to surprise my sis. what the hell should i do now? terrible, terrible.

oh btw, the 1st pathetic thing was my 1st long lit essay which took 2 n 1/2 pages, turned out to be a total crap. quoted from ms C. "hui ling, this is the worst working i've ever gotten from you! what happened to you?? your work is jumbled up, i cant even understand a single point you're trying to get to me."

then the 2nd pathetic thing was that i waited for these two friends who usually goes back with me, only to know that both of them went back already *after* i called one of them. not a good day, not a happy ending either. i was fucking close to missing the fucking bus. and they didnt have the slightest common sense to let me know. liz, again, you're being too nice. STOP being so nice to ppl la!!!!!!!

this is getting so much more pathetic if i dont stop at any moment, i'd burst out crying.
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31 March 2008 @ 09:28 pm
Some things~  
some updates :
- mr noel's back with DOUBLE lameness (haha! or maybe he's just trying to be really lame to ensure us that he's totally okay?..)
- i sprained my right foot and i keep spraining it @.@
- i'm getting fatter @.@ @.@
- i start to love some english songs =D


some other things :
i went to ts' baskin robbins today! ^^ oh my god for the first time i had one whole pint for myself @.@ i'm so not touching br or any other ice creams for some time now =.='' anyways while we were eating, we talked about loads of stuffs, yes, including the langkawi trip which i kinda lost interest in already due to many many ridiculous demands by one particular person. did i make the right choice by hosting this trip for them? feels like i just took up some big load of crap now~ anyway, lets diverse.
kervin's going to russia for medical after a levels~ darwin's keen on economics because he has this mindset that economics can bring him more money since young~ heinz is going to uni of nottingham for chemical engineering~ seems like i'm the only lost one here right? ^^" despite them asking me what do i want to do numerous times, i'm still unable to make up my mind. darwin's true, i keep changing my ambition, but merely to suit my financial and at the same time my dreams. while they were talking bout some friends who dream high but do not study, i kinda "terasa" hahah! Xp true, i'd love to become a veterinarian but what the fuck am i doing here? like, fucking blogging??? this is really ironic. of course, they'd be embarrassed to hurt my feelings and so may help me justify things, but truth is, i know it myself, that i can only dream but without action. rotten apple.
during lit class today, alea was preparing for her interview with the people from shell company~ she looked immensely nervous but, good luck girl!!! you can do it ^^ then when ms C asked about uni applications, i saw a few hands shot up. of course, i'm not the only one lost or unable to continue =\
what has happened to youngsters nowadays? as an observer and a listener, i keep seeing and hearing my friends stressing themselves for uni stuffs. some of them must have cried a few times just for this stupid stuff. yes, it may be stupid to me just because i'm not applying or whatsoever. believe me, if i could, i'd have applied long time ago. "you wont understand, you're so carefree, you dont need to do anything!" really babe? do you think thats my dream? complete my a levels, be done with it and go work my ass off? hahaha, nah i dont think i'm offended by these kind of thoughts. afterall, i'm in college. a private college full of rich kids who do not need As to get into uni.
lets see what do i consider before deciding on my future:
- will my parents need to suffer and work few 10 years more to support me?
- will i be able to get the best in what i do?
- will it pay me back fruitfully?
- will it be easier to gain me PR in other countries?
- will it help me to realise my parents' dreams before they pass away?
if you'd just pause what you are doing and start thinking of all these, really, you wont just be stressed out like this =) still want to compare now? =)
like what kervin says, you wont be happy doing what you want if that's not what you intend to do. thats why i couldnt let go off my dream as vet, but at the same time, i cannot neglect people around me who'll need me in the future. hence, i cant decide.
now i do understand why there are so many teenagers out there who choose to waste their teenage life away. but really babes, avoiding reality is not the way. how long can one run away? i sometimes cannot understand how a child can hurt his parents. i'm not a hypocrite. i dont deny that i sometimes unintentionally hurt my parents too. but now i've learnt to keep quiet because when you are angry, you just dont think. like my mum and sis!!! when they're angry, they hurt people to the deepest and after that, they regret. how many more times can you regret? really, love them more because you never know when you will have to stop loving them and forget that you have a childhood. i guess we are already moving to that point. maybe that is why i dont want to make a decision? =\

i think i need to start my homeworks already ^^ i'm still aiming for at least all Bs ahahaha~

ps: i *seriously* just dont care if i'm wearing the same tee every week =) nor will i care if i dont use stila cosmetics or dkny perfumes ^^ please dont compare me with *you*~! ^^"
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